I am so frustrated!!!

To the man I share my life and love with...

I am so frustrated (not with you, but at US) for us just accepting the benefits as was, because it was good for here. I am frustrated that we didn't even think to negotiate with them in fear that they would say forget it. I am frustrated that we just took the first thing that came along to get out of MD (where we somewhat want to get back to). I am frustrated that we bought this house and now we have to live in it and pay for it and we don't really even like it. We are dumb. UGH!!! I am frustrated that we can't live where we really want to live (CA) because it is so darn expensive and we would live in a mobile home for the rest of our lives just to be in a good place. I am frustrated that in a year's time, we made so many stupid mistakes and jumped the gun so many times that we are now in the place we are. I am frustrated that we haven't found a church and we really don't have any friends. One thing I am not frustrated with, though, is that we are learning from all of this, we know somewhat what to look for in the future for jobs, house, church, town, etc. We have learned to talk more to each other about all of this and we have gone through it with one another. I wouldn't take any of that back. I am glad we have gone through this learning experience, but just frustrated all the same.

We will get through this.

I love you,
me :D
xoxoxoxoxoxox